I WANT ALL THE ANSWERS!!!

OMGOSH do you ever just want to have ALL the ANSWERS!! like does your mind ever go a thousand miles per minute and you wish you had an answer for everything you think. But shouldn't you be able to have all the answers about YOURSELF. omgosh how frustrating! Like if i think " why the hell do I do this? or feel like this?" and you can't even answer your own QUESTION about YOURSELF, how aggy! lol. very random yet very annoying! even when teachers talk about something and I don't know what it is, I immediately go home and google it. Why? I'm obsessed with having all the answers and one day I truly hope to attain every answer to every question or feeling that comes within my space. Maybe this is a little unrealistic, but in a world full of reality, who can label the real from the unreal! ...i WILL have all the ANSWERS!!

Fall For your type

" Can i, can i, save you from you.
Cuz you know that somethings different
and that champagne you've been sippin,
aint suppose to make you different over time.
It's starting to feel, like its the wrong thing to do girl,
cus with all that recognition makes it hard for you to listen to the the things that Ima say to make you mine" -

-Drake

Now if we rewind to my early blog days when I did my mini feature on Drake, and fast forward to now, I'm still as into him as ever. Today me and my friend were sitting in the car talking about relationships (typical) and replayed this song at least 10 times. Although it is a teasing 2 minute track, this first verse was so powerful. Listening to my friend talk about her relationship and the connection to this song, made us open our eyes to what Drake was saying. Like so many of us, we meet people with potential to be that person we want hem to be. Despite all the qualities that intially attracted us to that person, it's so often that their flaws stand out greater. And we attempt to make it our priority to fix them. Drake's line " with all that recognition makes it hard for you to listen to the things that Ima say to make you mine" was a REAL ass verse. (pardon).

Breakdown: Usually we get acknowledged or recognized for certain qualities about us that stand out to people. whether it's that you are funny, an honest person, silly, egotistical,...(you get where I'm going) , and all of that may be cool to your friends and outsiders, but stepping into a relationship front, there are things that you may need to compromise. I was taken back that Drake got that deep into the song, and brought that to our attention. If people praise certain qualities about you, those same qualities may not be all 100% in a relationship aspect. So when do you compromise? When do you realize that changing them doesn't always change IT? ....

idk just a thought. but GO DRAKE!!!!!!!

Summer, hurry !

This summer I am anticipating on being simply AMAZING!! with someone new to play with (hehe), a new internship, and already the parties and cookouts lined up...i'm just soo excited to get away from this repetitive environment. It's to the point that I refuse to step outside my room unless I am doing something extrodinary....so usually that doesnt happen and i'm to myself. WHICH I DON'T MIND! some people just can't be to themselves, but I love it!! i love my "to me time". even if its reading weird things on the computer, magazines, shows, facials, or nails...i'm never bored with myself :)
Anyways back to summer 2010. i await youuuu. I'm really into this one person who I feel will help make this summer amazing. After two years of really not paying dudes too much mind, I actually get butterflies with this one. lol

I think this is the season to find someone. I'm beginning to notice a lot of friendships becoming dependent on one another and that is the BIGGEST sign that it is time for a MAN. lol. sadly, i'm the kind of girl that once i'm with someone i may just disappear from my girls for a sec. ONLY FOR A SEC. their is honestly no feeling like being in a relationship. Unlike girls, a man can check you, be the only person to be 100% honest with you. Your girlfriend won't always.

So girls, if you start to see yourself be all about your friendships please it is GET A MAN SEASON! ....and its getting uglier and uglier. lol

Do you like the way you sound?

....Lately i've been becoming more and more annoyed with people who talk about themselves CONSTANTLY. i am seriously one to be proud of things my friends accomplish but when you are consumed with the words "me, me, me," I shut down. How can one be so selfish but to ask you about you. How you are doing? How's life? How's your relationship?....some friends just don't ask and yet I am suppose to hear you drown yourself in a conversation that is ALL ABOUT YOU.

...i know that I can posess a selfish attitude but talking about myself constantly is something that I just can't do. I even find myself not having words to say back to the people that do this. Usually i do not choose my blog to vent in regards to personal things but this is a MAJOR one. Selfishness doesn't have to circle around the fact that you are about you, but it can also be in the aspect that you talk about you.

...I'm so grateful that I am the kind of person who is genuinely interested in other peoples lives...until thats all i hear.