.GREEN ADDICTION.

Money talks? ..yes! too damn much!!
i am soo sick of the money conversation!
i'm tired of my mom crying about it, my father *pretending* not to have it, and me not making any during the school year.
It's all so overwhelming!
i realize whoever says money doesn't buy happiness was rich as hell, and never experienced being broke. because its DEPRESSING.

OH *SNAP*

we all want the money. cars and the clothes.

x nay on the "hoes" but you get where im going with this.

SUCCESS.

most of us craaave the fast life, those flashing lights ! the red carpet smiles, and gorgeous roberto cavalli dresses.

(hmm)..just thinking about it brings me butterflies !

so these past few weeks me and my girls have really been talking a lot about this, and how BAD we want the success. I would use the word "fame" but it sounds so bland and effortless. You can get fame from doing anything scandolous! but success is worked towards...and thats what i want!

okay okay, perhaps i want both.

but i can feel it. its almost there !

welcome back.

lately i have been receiving an overwhelming amount of texts and calls from my past. Quite frankly, i'm scared.

I've never been the type of girl to indulge in people of the past. When its over, im over you...and moving on, but the randomness of it all, has me wondering...uhm WHY?

i realize that some people of my past may always be in my life. one in particular. although their are no feelings left, its comforting to know that no matter what that person still cares. That he still cherishes those times, and may secretly want them back.

I can't give them that. I can't let the people i intentionally let go of, just re enter my life... can i?

if so, what was the whoole purpose of cutting them out anyways!

I guess i'm just ultimately ready for a relationship. I am definately the "relationship" type of girl, and to have gone at least 2 years without one is slowly taking its toll. Where are the prospects?? ...I need not let boredom result to talking to these people again.

let the pastt be in the PAST.

november.

hey guys !long time no blog. !

lol i guess i have become one of those "seasonal" bloggers.

i realize i think about a lot but im such a personal person that i am EXTREMELY selective with what i put out into the universe. its all love tho :)

basically I'M BACK. and i must learn to continue what i start..

this blog was once my baby and i've surely missed it.

no more being miss seasonal.

well,,,, stay tuned!

Intuition.

"i've got this crazy feeling, i'm gon be single again. I know it, i can feel it, I know you gon mess up." -keri hilson said it best.
A female always has deep intuition about a guy, whether we chose to listen to it or not. I hate when we know a guy's past and choose to ignore it, hoping that we are the reasons he changed. uhm BULLSHIT. sometimes it can be true, a guys past is his past, but as women are we truly believing that none of his old ways will or can be carried to his present and even worst, the future relationships? Of course people can change, but i'm starting to feel we must always have that one eye open at all times. Relationships are based on what we accept and expect from one another. The same things you accept now will be the things you regret later....

FOLLOW YOUR INTUITION.

. PROTEST "FWB".

. the newest and most needed protest.

so i started a facebook group called Protesting " Friends with Benefits". so far i have 82 members, and new people are joining every day.
I think this is the most necessary protest to change relationships today. The problem is that "friends with benefits" are the root as to why men are having troubles commiting to something when they are getting all of the benefits of being in a relationship without actually being in one. AND its sad. BUT i blame women, for we are allowing it....WELL NO MORE

I recently received some messages saying how great of an idea the group is and how i should actually put fourth making a greater effort to making this protest "real." One girl suggested that I start an organization at Hampton for women. Basically the organization will deal with relationship issues, and women empowerment. How we, as women, can raise our standards back up. I THINK THIS IS A GREAT IDEA!!
... i'm on the radio station so that would allow me to host forums and basically reach the message to a broader audience and get support.

i'm really excited and this is something i am VERY interested in.
i'll keep the updates on where this goes :)

OH [ JOIN THE PROTEST ALL]

A farewell letter.

Pouring out my heart into this .....this toxic, non growing, ongoing relationship.
Once upon a time, it was something amazing. Something young, yet grown, ...innocent even.
But we lost it?
No, i lost it!
I realized what I wanted, and accepted that you will never change. Never say never, maybe one day. But i promise you one day will be too late.
Three years and i'm still singing the same song. It's as if we're standing in time. I wanted us to continue as the big hand turned..I wanted us to be beautiful...to the point that our flaws would make us even more perfect. But hey, that was just my silly little plan.

You showed me that you had another plan in mind. Who am I to mess that up for you?
So i walk away. Quietly. Without making a scene or blasting your name. I just dissappear as If i was never there. As if we never were.

Everyday it hurts. Giving up on what I wanted.
Maybe one day you will feel it. Maybe thats what it takes. For me not to be there.
....But i say farewell....
Farewell to my past.

Dear blog,

Dear blog,

i've been thinking a lot about relationships. About the positive and negative aspects, and whether some relationships even deserve the dedicated time. I've been feeling like the expectations for relationships are getting lower and lower. Do men now a days even know what "dates" entail? ........i find this to be an accurate example of a date: anyplace outside the bedroom, and house.

with all of these different observations drawn, i decided that we as women, need to step up. A wise man once told me..." men only do what they are allowed to do." If we allow them to treat us a certain way, they are. plain and simple.

....honestly

i realized that i have taken the route of protecting myself by talking to as many boys as i can. Thats a true confession. Is it healthy or not? who is to say. Forgetting names and calling one by the other by accident can get pretty tiresome. And OLD..thats it! the games are getting old!
but do you ever feel like you just HAVE to play the game, because trusting one will result in too much damage. Maybe i need advice this time.

Sincerely,

Nikki B

Pop Champagne. For Barack Campaign.

POP CHAMPAGNE.

--OBAMA IS IN THE HOUSEEEE--

yes yall! we have welcomed the first African American president EVER and what means the most is that i was there in Washington, DC to experience it.

Two days before innauguration myself along with hundreds of thousands of other people from around the world, crowded around the lincoln memorial to honor Obama. It was amazing! It felt like everyone was so united, and for once i was so proud to be an American.

Michelle looked gorgeous of course and when Obama spoke all you saw was tears and people going crazy!!

Possibly the best experience of my life and i cant wait to share it with my grandchildren....

Wow!

WOW! so if yall watch despserate housewives of ATL as religiously as I do, then you NEED to know that Deshawn Snow [ to the far right] has been kicked off the show and get this.......

they will be replacing her with either Tameka Foster, Ushers wife, or Frank Ski's wife, Tanya [ whoever that is]
but yooooooooo this is my show!! Usher on Housewives of ATL will be bomb! and his new baby :)

5 Times you shouldnt text him. ( According to Cosmopolitan )

1. After your first few dates
It may be tempting to contact a guy after an amazing date, but resist the urge.
Reaching out lessens the thrill of the chase.
2. When your drunk
Since phones dont come with breathalyzers, its up to you to stop yourself from sending a tipsy message--especially one that suggests you two meet up asap. Being too available lets a guy know that he has all the leverage.
3. When you're angry
It's annoying when a guy flakes, but sending a "Why haven't you called me?!" inquiry makes you look massively insecure. Avoid angry texts once you're in a relationship too. "When it's in writing, you can't easily take it back," Kirschner says. It's even smart to ban bitchy humor, which can sound meaner than it is.
4. When you've already texted him that day.
Once you're in an ongoing relationship, you may be tempted to rely on texting as a regular form of communication, and there's nothing wrong with staying in touch that way sometimes. But electronic communication discourages phone conversations and one-on-one time. Also, guys like brief updates, not a blow-by-blow of your life.

Daily Affirmation: Friendships.

So i used to send my friends daily affirmations to help them through the day, and apparently the feedbacks were great. Now i get to share with you guys!


Friendships, Friendships, Friendships. Can they not be the most annoyingest relationships in the world? Meeting new people is always good, and developing friendships can truly be beneficial as it can provide you with someone to be there for you. But on the hand, girl friendships can be the ANTI CHRIST sometimes. We are often stuck in situations where we are forced to understand each others personalities and then accept certain shit because we " know them." whooof!
Then often times you take on the issues with jealousy, and betrayal. So my whole attitude for the new year, and should be yours as well, is to " do you" first. Put yourself first this year. Take time to work out, eat right, go to the spa, have personal time. Its not bad to be alone sometimes. I think thats the issue. In friendships we depend on each other alot. We depend on that person to be there if we decide to take spontaneous ventures, be honest but then adjust the words in a way that doesnt hurt us, and most importantly we depend on them to be "dependable."
......so as you prosper in your individual friendships just remember to take time for yourself. It doesnt hurt anyones feelings if you say "no" to going out one night or so. Its your life, so be happy !

classic love.

"Beyonce and Jay-z"
In my eyes, they are amongst the most powerful couples of today. Jay being my favorite in the hip hop industry and beyonce, my favorite R&B artist, it seems noone can take on this couple. They are in every way the "dream" pair. Wealthy, beautiful, and real. I mean 5 years of dating? This has to be a classic love.



" Kourtney Kardashian and scott"
So im a big kardashian fan. I think all the girls are FUCKING fabulous, but Kourtney in particular is the "bomb" in my eyes. If you ever watch the show " keeping up with the kardashians," you can clearly see the relationship between she and scott and its simply ADORABLE. idk its something about the realness and not the over the top cheesy lovey dovey shit that makes me fall in love with them as a couple.

classic love poems.

The Odyssey:

letters to the immortal beloved.

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us ...

Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits ...

No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves ... Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men ...

My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once ...

Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thine,

Ever mine,

Ever ours.


To Be One With Each Other” by George Eliot

What greater thing is there for two human souls
than to feel that they are joined together to strengthen
each other in all labor, to minister to each other in all sorrow,
to share with each other in all gladness,
to be one with each other in the
silent unspoken memories?

[ the come up ] 2008-2009

Aubrey Graham, as you may know Jimmy from " Degrassi" is definately on the come up.
His shit is fire, and his flow is crazy.
His sound is real laid back and lupe type.
" Brand new," and " Man of the year " and other tracks prove that Drake will definately make it and can only get bigger in the 09.
certain.
look out for him!

Dark hair is Boss.

<. they prove that dark brown hair can look stunning.

understand. you can NEVER go wrong with dark brown hair. . . .









" nu nu" can rock anything and look baddd, but her dark brown hair accentuates all of her features and gives her a clean and sexy look.

Get to know Leighton Meester

Ladies, get to know Leighton Meester. After following the attractive show, Gossip Girl, i immediately started noticing her. Not only does her attitude give her a diva quality, but her style is one to idolize. She is soo fabulous! and her headdbands are ALWAYS. i repeat. ALWAYS to die for!

. Fierce.

So i just thought that this was one of beyonce's best looks.
Of course beyonce is known for her ultra sexy style but the all black looks **fab** on her.
-- there is something gorgeous about all black. its confident, yet secretive. Bold and very fierce.
I love the way she dressed it up with the variety of necklaces and the belt.
..if she could have only left the gloves in the purse.

if there was such a thing as "perfect"

What girl doesn't love sex and the city?
Is it the witty conversations between four fabulous girlfriends or the "ughh, i want that" style.

-- carrie is simply fabulous.
In the movie this outfit was definately one to catch the staring eye. she wore it soo perfectly.
The cut out back and the black belt madeee this dress soo classy and fab. no other words.
**amazing from the front to back.