Why do the good feelings never last? They can occur and be the most intense feeling, then disappear in a heartbeat. When things go bad, do you immediately ignore all the good feelings?
As women, we do tend to do that a lot. We consume ourselves with the disappointment of bad things happening that we tend to overlook what was good. Applies in relationships, work experience, school experience and friendships. It can take one bad incident to make you contemplate giving it all up. Have we become so accustomed in knowing the results of bad that when the bad hits us, we run, or we try rearranging ourselves in some aspect. We forget that bad things contribute to growth. Maybe if we are to stick around longer during a bad situation to really analyze, observe and take in everything, we can become better people. Perhaps, giving up too soon is why we often find ourselves in the same situation twice, or more. It's not that we are dumb or naive, but simply because we haven't retained enough information from our bad situation to scare us from doing it again. Maybe that's it, or maybe I have caused you a headache. lol.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Saturday, May 15, 2010
summer nights!
theree is no place on EARTH like NEW YORK CITY!!!! i had the most amazing night with my bestfriend and it made me realize how much i love new york and this age! We attended a hotel rooftop shindig in the meat packing district. A completely random trip we decided to take at 12am. it was a mixture of rich white europeans and americans; amazingly fun. I felt so sexy, sophisticated as we sipped our cosmos on the patio of this rooftop. I socialized with white men, and even made a billionaire friend. This man is the definition of charming, as he wooed us with conversation, buying unlimited drinks and then when walking with us to get food at 4am bought us 45 dollar flowers. He was gorgeous, and I was in love! lol. It put so many things in perspective for me, as this 25 year old man and I really hit it off. He is Jamaican and We learned that his father owns all of the sandals hotels as well as all of the burger kings and KFC joints on the island. Rich is an understatment, but yet I wasn't wooed by that. He told us that he isn't the social type because girls usually throw themselves at him or paparazzi is everywhere or people ask for things. Being the fun, warm, and charming jersey girls we are, we formed a deep chemistry with this guy, and made plans on showing him the real new york! soo exciting :)
Ultimately he showed us the way a woman should be treated. When crossing the streets he was attentive, opened the doors for us, and treated us like ladies. He was fun, refreshing , and I felt bad that as interested as I was in him and he was in me, he could see the excitment in my eyes when texting another guy. It's weird. As much as I am single, I realized that I am becoming crazy about this boy that I'm talking to. We teach each other so many interesting things, and I'm just overall fascinated by him. Oh, I continue to date and open my horizons to other people because I am too afraid to put all my eggs in one basket. Unfortunately, even my bestfriend was freaked out by this nikki who is responding to this boys every command. lol. it's that early stage bliss. It's beautiful, and I want to hold on to it. Yea, we have already had our spats and fallouts but its all so innocent still. He's trying, I'm trying and I finally feel that with him. It's becoming comfortable, yet not too comfortable. I'm excited....Ultimately, I'm loving these summer moments; and nights. It's a dream come true so far.
Ultimately he showed us the way a woman should be treated. When crossing the streets he was attentive, opened the doors for us, and treated us like ladies. He was fun, refreshing , and I felt bad that as interested as I was in him and he was in me, he could see the excitment in my eyes when texting another guy. It's weird. As much as I am single, I realized that I am becoming crazy about this boy that I'm talking to. We teach each other so many interesting things, and I'm just overall fascinated by him. Oh, I continue to date and open my horizons to other people because I am too afraid to put all my eggs in one basket. Unfortunately, even my bestfriend was freaked out by this nikki who is responding to this boys every command. lol. it's that early stage bliss. It's beautiful, and I want to hold on to it. Yea, we have already had our spats and fallouts but its all so innocent still. He's trying, I'm trying and I finally feel that with him. It's becoming comfortable, yet not too comfortable. I'm excited....Ultimately, I'm loving these summer moments; and nights. It's a dream come true so far.
Friday, May 7, 2010
No place like home.
" Welcome to Jersey " has to be the most comforting signs I have ever read!
I LOVE HOME && honestly, It's the most real I can feel. Living in VA, i go through so many different emotions. I block people out, I get mentally bored and tired, and then when I come home it's like my light shines again! its something that is eternal, and never fades. I've missed my family, friends, my associates, my New York, the people that make me laugh the most. The ones who know me and I can feel 100% myself with. I love that feeling !
I am so grateful to have the experience of being able to go to school out of state, because when I come home, it makes me appreciate where I'm from so much greater. I missed culture, diversity. I lack that in VA, and home is where my reality lies.
I LOVE HOME && honestly, It's the most real I can feel. Living in VA, i go through so many different emotions. I block people out, I get mentally bored and tired, and then when I come home it's like my light shines again! its something that is eternal, and never fades. I've missed my family, friends, my associates, my New York, the people that make me laugh the most. The ones who know me and I can feel 100% myself with. I love that feeling !
I am so grateful to have the experience of being able to go to school out of state, because when I come home, it makes me appreciate where I'm from so much greater. I missed culture, diversity. I lack that in VA, and home is where my reality lies.
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